Pissed

OMG...yea i'm losing weight...my waist is smaller woot. ok. EXCEPT....now I have my fucking period. Two mos early. UGH....noo...mad :(Cysts popping..periods 2 mos early....NO BUENOOOOO. I guess it means I am getting healthier but meh..I don't like thiiss...one bit!!! UGH UGH UGH. I decollared monique today so she is pissed at me. meh. Not. A. Good. Day. bleh. sigh. I hate being a woman. It sucks ass.

HAPPINESS DANCE!!!

woot woott!!! I measured this AM and am 299.6 lbs....2 lbs less than 2 days ago. YAY MEE!!! I also measured my waist like 4 mins ago. My waist is now 49" which is 3 inches smaller than I was a week ago. WOOT WOOT. this week has been a trying one for me. But this....this just made it all better! I amm so friggen happy! I needed this! I talked to David the other day.....then I cried. It wasn't as bad as it could have been. Just very emotionally draining. I found out Marsha is extending to him to. She sent him a card with some pictures. We didn't even plan it. Was soo weird. Glad I am not the only one tho. Baby steps. Baby steps. And, as long as my mother doesn't find out. All will be fine. I am right now on a path to decide if I love him or not. I think I do, I mean he is my father....I don't know tho. Time will tell all. I can't get over how ecstatic I am tho at this weight loss! I will continue! I will! It will take time and patience, but I WILL get there ! soo excitedd!!!

Life as of today.

Life brings many things our way. As thanksgiving passes and Christmas comes After a long night of thinking I have come to realize I bitch, I bitch a lot. I blame, I do. Most of the time the people I blame actually deserve the blame. But, I do blame people for things. I could just take responsibility, my fault or not. I don't tho. I am no saint. Far from it actually. I have done things I regret, I can lie to people very successfully most of the time. Except to those select few who are so damn closed to me they can read me like a book. Many people don't have the things I do. I should be grateful and instead? I complain, I get mas when things don't go my way and I bitch some more. I have given and given and given yes. However, do I not have more to give? My home life is not the healthiest...but some people do not have a home life at all.

I disowned my father David five years ago. He hurt me, Hurt me badly. I do not know how else to put it. I however, Feel I need to be the bigger person and give him yet another chance. I know it will be hard and I will want to lose my temper a lot. But, he is getting on in years and if I grant my mother so much leeway shouldn't I grant David the same? A lot of my prejudice against him was brought on by my mother. Is it fair to let her prejudices control how I feel, think and believe? I do not think so. Life is hard for so many. Including ourselves. It is so, so hard. Shouldn't I give David that chance again to try to make up the damage he caused?

My mother says she loves me . I have a hard time believing that. She never shows it. I grant her more leeway than I do David...why? Maybe it is because I live with her. Maybe not. I can't be sure. I do know that I need to be the bigger person and Try to make this move. I have unanswered questions. Things I need settled and need to be talked about.

From today forward, I am going to try to be more grateful for what I have instead of worrying about what I don't have. That will be a hard task....especially living where I do. I must try tho, I must be the better person. I can not let what other people have chosen for me over ride what I want in life.

Friendship

Friends, the Family we choose. So, so true. With friends come love "Love is a silken cord strong as a chain of steel binding creation together". Again very true. I love my friends each and every one of them.




Chris, What can I say? We have been through so much together, so much. I feel like I have hurt you in so many ways. Yet, here you are. You have been my confidant and much more for the past 4 years. I know 4 years? Wow. We met in Rousers just as it was closing I remember the question you asked me as if it was yesterday. Cassie: Hey, Have fun in the future, guess we won't talk now that the league is no more Chris: So, we can't still be friends? That suprised me so much that day. I am so happy you asked me that question or I would not have come to know you the way I do. You and your crazy family. BTW I am STILL willing to trade at ANY time ;)



Vic and Claton..Wow...who shall we greif today? HAHA. You take all my BS and I mean AAALLLLLL of it. From moody to bitchy to sweet and innocent. You get it all... I love you both so much for all you have done for me and continue to do for me. I hope to be able to repay you some way, some how in the future. I can't wait to be able to come to Australia and see you two and little baby Tori....I am sure it will be an adventure of a lifetime .



Kirty...SISSEEHHHH!!!! meh twineh poo! haha. What can't we talk about with each other? What don't we know about each other? We have known each other a few sort mos and already...you are one of the closest ppl to me. Closer than most of my Real life family. You are not just my second life sister, you are my real life sister! I wouldn't trade you for the world!



Rory, Rory, Rory, Rory, What CAN I say about you? So much to say and so little space. We talk each others ears off when we need to it is a mutual thing whenever life throw something at one of us and we just need a 3rd party, unbiased opinion, we call on one another. You also are closer to me than most people. You have played an important part in my life in the short time I have known you. Thank you is all I can say.


Chase!!! Chase!!! You are wonderful. You are awesome, you are great! I love you to death. We have each been through a break up together now. For the worst, or for the better. We each have people we love dearly and unfortunately have to live without. We are there for eachother and will kick the shit out or anyone who tries to do each other wrong. I love you sisseh.



Keila, WOW almost 12 years can you believe it? We met in may of 1999 and here we are approaching 2011 still friends and still lovin each other on. You were one of my First adopted sisters. We lived across the street from each other and I scared you spitless every day HAHAHA remember "Noooooo, my barbies name is selena quintanilla" AHAHAH those were good old times. The front porch, the sneaking to each others houses...Walking to the bus togther. We were inseparable. I wish things were still that way.



Kristal...Shorts in the snow? Really? Food fight on your 12th birthday? Oh yea...THAT is the good stuff. You found god, he makes you happy. I am not as religious as you however I am so happy that you are happy. Tell that man of yours that he better not mess up...or I will hurt him AHAHAH and I say that with all the love in my heart and Christian goodness and all of that. Stay good, Stay safe and never forget you were my other adopted sissy when we were very young. Just like your sister we have known each other 12 years you two are my longest friends. I will never forget you. We have grown apart with the distance between us but will never stop loving each other.



Rebecca, You and I have been through so much from vesta to england, to moves to "I can NOT believe you just said that! " and " Thank you for calling the AT&T go phone payment center...." The gym is your friend....even if autumn doesn't think so...it is.... work that ass off, you know you wanna. As for that husband of yours...tell him to shape up or I will kick his ass ;)






These are the people I consider closest to me in my life. They say you don't get many friends, the good ones anyway in your lifetime. I have found these people and love them to death. There are many more on my list of good friends Some I wasn't able to ad for lack of picture or what have you. I still love you. Friends ARE the family that we choose....Each and every one of these people are in my family. They love and support me when I need it. We might be distant at times but we are here and there. They also kick my ass into gear when I need it. Thank you to all of you for being who you are. Good and bad, old and young. Become who you are, and please....Do not change one bit. I consider you each perfect in your own way.





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Happy dance!

I keep saying this over and over and freaking over again but I have to succeed this time, For me. To prove to myself and others that I can do it, that is can be done, that what I say I am going to do I will do. I am 21 and I don't want to spend my 20's and 30's or anymore of my life in the 20+ sizes. Just can't happen for my Health or anything. Thankfully with thanksgiving..It looks like I didn't gain all that much. I weighed today in the morning yaddah, yaddah, yaddah like you are supposed to. I am 301.6 YAY! 3 lbs less than yesterday evening. I think the weighing myself everyday is actually doing more for me than weighing every week. I just let go and it doesn't work. The scale is going to go up and down I know that. But for it to go up 4 lbs in a week like it has? No bueno. I WILL SUCCEED hehehe. This is proof, I haven't gone back up to 320 in a long time. I CAN and Will DO this!
Random Lyric "Love, Hate, Sex, Pain it's complicating me sometimes, Love, Hate, Sex, Pain It's underestimating lives"

New hair, little smaller (Just a tiny)

Sooo I just weighed and measured myself (granted its 8pm and I have eaten and drank shit and all that today). I weigh 304.9 lbs meh, TOOOO MUUCHHH on the bright side. My waist is 2" smaller. I am now a 52" waist. I know fat eh? I am working on it. tho. I lurve lurve lurve this picture of meh. My hair is now BLLAACCKKKK but, I need to touch it up again. It is starting to grow out LOL. I think I am diggin the black. Not so happy with the upkeep it will take tho. Maybe I will keep the black. I don't knooow. we will see. Talkin to Chase atm. We doing a pact together she gonna gain weight to be where she wants to be and look how she wants to. I am gonna lose fat. I nneeedddddd TO LOSE FAT. I MUST I MUST I MUST. It is sooo hard tho..everyhtign here has TONS of calories. Sigh. Also, the stress and the temptations. IDK if I am strong enough. the lack of gym doesn't help either :\ Meh I WILL do this tho I HAVE to. Next time I see anyone or meet anyone from offline .I want them to go VAVAVOOOOM YOU LOOK GREAT!!!! heheeh we will see idk. meh. im working on it, I am. It just.. takes time sigh. and privacy which I don't have. bleh. Random Song quote of the day"Faith hope and love are some good things he gave us, and the greatest is love".

I could love you like that

So many things so many emotions. Am I crazy? I think so. I realized that I have been trying so, so hard to make myself not love him, to push him out of my mind that I have been sabotaging myself. I need to just let myself be, let myself love. In time I will get over him if I let myself just be. Eventually something will click to make me not love him. I could love him in so many ways. Some healthy some not so healthy. We play facebook games together (which in this post I kind of hope he doesn't read this. He would know for sure who he is. All I want. ALL I WANT is him ot be happy. As far as facebook games go. Most are pretty stupid. In fact most I have deleted most of them or blocked or whatever. the same things over and over and over again. bleh. Meh boobs..now theres something. OMG they keep falling asleep! While I was in Cali I got fitted for a bra and discovered I am actually a G cup. BBUUUTTTT....recently I have been popping out of the g because there is just TOOOOOOO MUUCHH of meh. So my boobs have been fallign asleep lately...and if your boobs have ever fallen asleep you KNOW how uncomfy it is. I Need to get a new one. A better fitting one. One thats sized correctly again. Meh. This week has been a weird one. An aggravating one. I found out I almost had a job 40hr/week graveyard..and didn't get it cuz the phones were off. -.- . Meh sisseh Chastity broke up with her BF -.-...the asshole. He came to me first and said he was gonna which left me between a rock and a hard place. To tell her or not. I told her. I had to tell her. I can't keep that kind of thing a secret. She is meh sisseh!! I also broke up with demon the girls' RL brother. He wont stop tho. Is trying to get me back etc. But I can't, I just can't. I can't handle how he is in relationships. Also, It isn't fair to him when I can't devote myself to him. I need someone with experience, LIFE EXPERIENCE. Not someone I need to teach. :\ I am back up in my weight. I had lost some. Now I am back up again. Meh. I need to find a way to overcome this mental shit here at home and crack down and lose weight. It just isn't working. Sigh, It was soooo much easier in cali. So much easier.

Half written

I must have half a dozen half done/ unfinished posts on this thing. All started and intending on finishing them. I lacked it LOL. I will hopefully get those finished and posted soonish. alot has happened since my last post, I was in cali, hot marines, hot weather LOL I know right? I dyed my hair and dated and broke up with demon spitteler on RL. I had an emotional breakdown and another fit YAY ME! narci and I fought more. Narci came to help more. tams went back and forth between bf's and the girls started opening up to me more. Lots has happened, I cant remember it all. Through it all tho...the one person on my mind is him. sigh.

Long lost Blog

Looks Like I lost myself and forgot to blog again. That happens right? September was a blur of nothingness except fights and such. We always fighting over here. No way around it. Sometime between the fighting, bickering and everything in between becca decided she wanted me in cali with her so she bought me a ticket to get me down there and off I went I flew in on the 24th exactly one month after connor was born. That was an interesting trip in general (more on the next post). One thing I did decide while I was there tho was that I need to lose weight. For myself.. I need ot lose weight. I want cuter clothes and to be able to buy them in more stores. I just need to. We started going to the gym and such while I was there .We also counted calories. My goal was 1500 calories....yea.. I have been hovering round 2000 since being back home :( Not so much good. I haven't gained weight buuuuutt...with my PCOS It makes it harder to lose. I was losing with the 1500 per day.....I am not so much with the 2000 per day more like maintaining even tho all the calculators say I need to be having like 2500 and still lose. SIGH. Also in cali I had access to a full gym. Here...I don't :\ It is hard to do at home excersizes for weight loss and Muscle strength, Especially when I look stupid doing the excersize and people make fun of me for it. I have to do it in secret. Not so easy.

When things get hard....and not in a good way.

Single & sexy...yea thats me NOT! I am single yea...and I am depressive about it. I am not some hot momma who can turn heads walking down the street. Tho I wish I was. Talking to him right now and going all depressive on him. Why can I never keep it together with him? everyone else I can slap a happy face on with and pretend its ok. Every time I talk to him tho I fall apart I let it all roll. It seems like it gets to him. I don't want to hurt him. I love him oh god I love him. I want to say it over and over and over. However I don't. I feel like if he realizes I love him still he will feel obligated...feel bad. Just now he was talking about how he wouldn't think twice bout screwing someone's housemate. If I told him..he'd feel the same way he did before. Guilty. Right now I am at camp pendleton with Rebecca and her family. Everyone is upstairs. I can't help but feel a sense of despair tho. It's weird. I don't know why. Being here is hard. I see rebecca and her husband and everyone else in pairs here and I wonder why am I not? Where is my prince charming ?

Pain, Pain and well I need to get out more PAIN

I could not sleep at all the night of the 16th. I tried and tried but no go. Then I had a fight with Steve, a guy I know on SL. it was an all around fun ass night. Still sleep didn't come to me meh :\. at about 6 am sy was on FB and I was awake so he decided to come out to forest grove. We walked and talked, it was great seeing. I hadn't seen him in a while. we walked down to rogers park and talked about anything and everything, not much wasn't said. We called each other bitches and laughed a lot. I miss my friends and having fun with them. Finally we ended up at rogers park that was WOW a long walk. For me right now anyway. I think it's only like 1/2 mile to a mile to rogers park from here but I havn't been out of the house, or well honestly off this couch in a while. the walk there and back wore me out! I am in so much pain now. My upper thighs and calves are soooo sore. I sooo need to get out more! wow. Soon as this pain subsides. I am gonna do more walking LOL. maybe to Rogers park and back HAHAHA.

Family.....or well....lack thereof

Family, those people who are always there for you. the ones who will love you no matter what. They celebrate birthdays weddings, anniversaries and everything in between with you. The ones you sit on the phone with for hours laughing about things that happened 10 years ago. The ones who never ignore you, or so it should be. Not all families are like that. above and below are pictures of my family. Well part of it anyway, the part I never see. I love my family very dearly and I want to see more of them. Problem is they live in California and I up here in Oregon. My family isn't perfect, but then what family is?
Recently I spent 6 weeks with this family in Cali and that was the best time in my life that I have had states side. I want desprately to become closer to this family but I don't know how. Shortly after I returned from my trip to Cali, My grandmother died and I had to fly back. During this time I noticed cliques in my family and I didn't fit anywhere. I thought my time with my sisters in march had strengthened my bond with them. now, I am not so sure. I am wondering if maybe I was more of a nuisance than a help, then a sister. when I was there we were great together, laughing talking I thought we were getting close especially with my sister Ruth. I watched her and my other sister talk back and forth, text, call each other. Be what sisters were supposed to be. However, she never confided much in me. I guess I can't blame her who am I? someone related to her by blood. Someone who she is told is her sister. But who am I really? She didn't know me. Other than being related we didn't know each other. We never talked before, we never called, emailed. Nothing. the two sides of my family have always been at war. I have been in the middle. I would like to think that I had very little contact with my fathers side of the family because of my mother and father and the war that ensued between the two sides of my family. Now I am not so sure.

As I sit here at almost 6 am I cant help but wonder is it me? Am I too much like David? Am I too much like my mother? neither of which I really want to be. Is it me? Is there something that I did or said that made them all stay away? I think I have tried to keep in contact with them. I guess I could have done better. My aunt and cousins have never really gotten to know me either. I didn't know that I had an aunt till I was 14. she knew about me but I however, was unaware of her. I also had no clue that I had cousins on my fathers side until Shana added me as a friend on myspace. Since I found out about this family I have tried to keep in contact with them, I have emailed, called and even left facebook messages for my aunt. No reply. Yet, when we are in the same room for a wedding or a funeral all seems fine. Shana seems a bit more interested in me, she at least tried to reply when I ask her a question or say something to her. Even so I tried contacting all three. Joanne, Shana and Lauren before I left for my trip to try to get together spend at least a little bit of time together, again no response. Again I wonder. Is it me?

Some family eh? In the end tho I still wonder is it me? After my time with my sisters this year I felt sure that we had gotten closer, gotten to know each other better. I felt sure that we would keep in contact, laugh, talk and cry with each other like siblings do. We haven't. I can't help but wonder if it is me. Was I too mean to the boys? Did I do or not do something to piss my sisters off? I appreciate everything they have done for me immensely. I love them so much it hurts. I hurt. I want to be close to them ,I want a "normal" relationship with them. It just doesn't seem to be there tho.

I can't help but look back and see those cliques that were there when we all gathered for my grandmothers funeral may she rest in peace. My aunt and her kids kept to themselves and my sisters Marsha and Ruth were joined at the hip. During the service I was left at the end of the pew with a big gap between my sister and I crying and mourning our loss. I feel left out and alone. All my life the two sides were fighting over me, not for me, but for territory over me. and now? It seems like neither side wants me. What did I to? Maybe this is just some stupid insecurity, Maybe not. However, I can't help but wonder. What did I do? I grew up with crap and BS thrown at me from every corner, I don't know how to express how Desperately I want at least one side of my family to love me for who I am and want to be close to me. For one side to just say hey, she might be like David in some ways and she might be like Lori, But whatever, I still love her and I want her around.

My worst fear is that I will be like my parents. I strive everyday to be NOT like them. It feels like it is never enough tho, No matter how much I try I get told " you are just like David" or "You are just like your mother". Sometimes, I even notice things myself that are like one of my parents or the other and I cringe. Am I too needy? Am I too selfish? Am I asking too much? should I just give up? and if so how do I do that? How do I stop wanting a relationship with the people who I can without one doubt in my mind say that I love? how? If it is me please, tell me what I am doing wrong so that I can fix it.

Please baby don't die

Wow an interesting day to say the least. Marlin was over here for the day keeping cool. cause DAMN was it HOT! ugh I am sweating just thinking about it. whew! we had pizza, they watched a movie. was all gravy...mostly LOL. except when marlin went home he found a new born baby kitten, only hours old with the umbilical cord still attached. its so cute and tiny. We don't know what to do for it. it was probably cold, dehydrated etc. the tiny thing. I spent the last good hour or so searching the web for ways to keep it safe and alive till marlin can take it somewhere tomorrow. the poor baby, only hours old and left all alone :( He has just left to go buy KMR kitten milk replacement formula. I wish there was more we could do. I don't want the kitten to die :( it's so cute!!!!! My heart breaks for the tiny kitten who was left all a lone:(


On another note I am GOING CRAZY. I have not found a job yet and it sucks, I want no I NEED something to do. ANYTHING at this point. I even applied at a call center Saturday night. sigh. another call center bleh. I hope they call me tho. so much I want and need to do. I need a new laptop, I want and need to take another vacation. I want to go back to school. SIGH. too much. and it all takes money I don't have. A few thousand to be exact. meh. Life sucks and then you die. I think that is pretty much all my day was about today. Not very exciting , very borign actually :( will this boredom ever end?

Ah hello 4 am , we seem to meet alot...

Yep, thats right, it is 4 AM and I am still awake. My music player is on random and the christmas shoes randomly started playing. Interesting I know. "sir, I wanna buy these shoes for my momma please, it's christmas eve and these shoes are just her size, could you hurry sir, daddy says theres not much time". I know interesting thing to be listening to at 4 am. I got a few IM's off this guy I used to play called Evony. Was nice talking to him, he talked about another friend of ours alot tho LOL. I think he likes her. My mind is sort of sane at this point in time. I don't know how long that will last for tho. I am thinking about sleep hasn't come for me yet. meh. I am a bit happy tho I am over the pneumonia finally! It is about freaking time. Still looking for a job tho. It is really sort of annoying. I seem to be bored alot lately, that is probably why I am going crazy for lack of things to do. I know I am rambling LOL. I think the main reason I want a job is I need another vacation BADLY ( I know already right?) yep. I need another one. tho this time I think I need to go back out of the country. Maybe to england to see Chris again, or maybe I will venture to Australia to see Victoria and Claton.

I know alot of friends in other countries right? these ppl get to know me for me, the crazy hairbrained, eratic, freaks out and over reacts me. the one who isn't rational and has breaks downs and they still love me. Chris I have known for a little over 3 years now, I have gone to see him already and his fam is pretty cool, tho if tom tries to kiss me again it won't be pretty! (hear that tom, yea I am not letting you live that one down EVER!) haha, I miss them all there, I had fun, I had no worries, I was me , sarcastic, loud, crazy yea a few times rude. But I was also nice, polite, forgiving, funny and something to watch while carrying my heels in my hands on the way back from a night out with Chris and Tom.

Victoria I have only known a few months but it feels like years. She is like a sissy to me already. Like Chris she keeps me sane. she listens to me rant about things on almost a daily basis and is there when I need her, she is awesome, nice, funny, smart, pretty and an all around good person. I am lucky to know her. Her husband Claton is pretty cool too, quiet, but that is part of his charm.

Both great options but which to choose? I guess it doesn't really matter until I can afford to go right? Meh, gives me something to think about and look forward to.

"oh if you lose your once and only there is always room here for the lonely, watch your broken dreams dance in and out of the beams of a neon moon" that song just started playing and all of a sudden, it feels like my life, like how I am. hmmmm. interesting. I wonder why.....I am 20, why do I feel lonely? o.0 I should be out partying, not worrying about relationships or lack thereof hmm. this post is certainly a weird one.

Right, I am off to bed before it gets any wierder. Goodnight all, or I should say good morning since it is 4:37 AM pacific time on Mon, Aug. 16th, 2010.

So there's this guy....

So there is this guy, that I seem hung up on, the only guy I have ever been in love with. I SWEAR I know nothing can happen, nothing will happen and I am not holding my breath. if he were to read this yea, he would know who he is. it just keeps coming back. whenever someone asks me "who is the person you trust most of all no questions asked?" or "if you had to choose one person to have around you while you downed a roofie and passed out for 10 hrs, who would it be? " the most recent was " Where is and who is the one place/person where you can totally let go? not care about anything and just be you? the one person you could get drunk with, the one person that you don't have to waver on, that you know would be there? " all of these questions and many more come back to one answer, HIM. UGH. why? It can't work, it didn't work. He doesn't love me like that. I ruined any chance of that when I hurt him, I pushed for things, for answers I needed and wanted but wasn't getting, I pushed him so hard, I pushed him away.

Things are crazy, I don't like this. It doesn't bug me if he talks about other girls, It hasn't for a while, My heart is open to anything, I have talked to and dated a guy or two since I was with him. but still. It's there. They say that when you are in love with someone that never goes away no matter how hard you try. That is so unfair! I can't believe that. I want this to stop. its not a yearning I have to have him I love him so much I am going to die feeling. It is simpler, subtler. When I was around him, everything was so easy; for me anyway. I didn't have to think just do and be, it was like second nature. Victoria says to wait that in time it might be. I don't think so, he was very clear that I did not attract him in that way. Maybe that is because I was pushing, I don't know. I wish I did tho. things would be so much easier. life would be easier.

How can one person be split so much? I don't think of him like I used to, he is rarely on my mind in that way. so how can this be? why can this be? what is the purpose? Hell, why me? I can't help but wonder, how can I be so sure, so ok with knowing nothing will ever happen like that and yet, have him as the answer to every question that begins with "who is the one person that" it is so frustrating, so infuriating. sigh. Will I ever know? He is my best friend and always will be that will NEVER change unless I am dead. but it still sucks, still hurts.

Can't believe it.

Wow ok, I have not posted in a while. I am so bad with this stuff. Ugh. For those of you that play secondlife. I will be making a secondlife blog. of places to go things to do etc. I hope it gets soem reads cause I like secondlife its an awesome game. Right now while I am looking in RL for a job (and going crazy out of my mind of boredom). I am managing a club, and a store, sort of managing another actually looking after it while Victoria is unable to and I host at club nightscape as well. I am a countess in my clan (yes, I RP a vamp haha). and love every second of it. I have met a TON of wonderful ppl from around the US and other countries. Victoria, Trishy, Tami, steve, kinda, Dev, pumpkin, mari, monique,Anisa, Kanisha, chelsey and ashlie are just a few. I have also met some assholes and had some drama but hey, that happens in RL too right? I never knew a game, yes, a GAME, a virtual world could make me so happy but it has. can I jump into the game and just live there? Haha. I wish.

Thats all for now, I will try to remember to update more. Have fun yall!


hugssss

Cassie

Back on the wagon

Wow! its been a month since I did yoga last. I just got done with another session and do I feel good! I have been sick for the last 2 weeks and before that was sooo tired that I didn't do yoga. I miss it. My sister is now doing it too. Though she is probably way beyond me LOL. She is tiny and probably really flexible. Again my favorite pose was the warrior pose. However I realized.. I need to find some new poses LOL. I am going to go research some new poses.