Long lost Blog

Looks Like I lost myself and forgot to blog again. That happens right? September was a blur of nothingness except fights and such. We always fighting over here. No way around it. Sometime between the fighting, bickering and everything in between becca decided she wanted me in cali with her so she bought me a ticket to get me down there and off I went I flew in on the 24th exactly one month after connor was born. That was an interesting trip in general (more on the next post). One thing I did decide while I was there tho was that I need to lose weight. For myself.. I need ot lose weight. I want cuter clothes and to be able to buy them in more stores. I just need to. We started going to the gym and such while I was there .We also counted calories. My goal was 1500 calories....yea.. I have been hovering round 2000 since being back home :( Not so much good. I haven't gained weight buuuuutt...with my PCOS It makes it harder to lose. I was losing with the 1500 per day.....I am not so much with the 2000 per day more like maintaining even tho all the calculators say I need to be having like 2500 and still lose. SIGH. Also in cali I had access to a full gym. Here...I don't :\ It is hard to do at home excersizes for weight loss and Muscle strength, Especially when I look stupid doing the excersize and people make fun of me for it. I have to do it in secret. Not so easy.